Teacups

In the year Jubilee God asks us to not work the ground. It’s a lesson in trust. When I found this out I had already started seedlings of fall plantings such as cabbage in my greenhouse. I’ll be honest, it took a few days… Ok… weeks… For me to completely give those up. I put all my trays of beautiful seedlings… In the chicken coop. If you have chickens you’ll know that they were much appreciated by the chickens but devoured in seconds! In seconds, weeks of work down into a bird gizzard. What was I so afraid of? Lack of learning. You see, gardening and animals has been such an eye opening, ear hearing experience for me I didn’t want to lapse. Thankfully I trusted in a Jesus who NEVER fails to show Himself to those that seek Him. Who would have thought I could find Him in teacups?!?

Check these out! Aren’t they cute!

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Oh and these… We are going to make for sure!

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My son has a job to do in making these for our paper logs. Just in case teacups are to girly!

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It took me a while to start blogging again. I’m sorry. Not only did I not grow plants in fall but it’s followed by winter, a time things don’t grow. Or so it seems. Remember He already talked to us about winter. Spiritual winter and physical winter looks the same. All the growing is hidden. This Christmas season was a tough one for my family. Thru much study, prayer and leadership from Jesus we found out that He really does have a birthday and it’s not December 25th. We found the enemy really does do everything counterfeit too try to change the times and the seasons (Daniel 2:21) and we walked with Jesus thru this winter of no Christmas to thankfully come out better on the other side but not necessarily unscathed. We shared in His fellowship of sufferings.

Since it didn’t have anything to do with growing plants or animals I didn’t think it fit in the blog. Fortunately He showed me that growing ME still counts. However this was thru showing me Pinterest and getting me creating once again. Then was I able to see that everything He leads me thru is part of creation for the created. I’m created and He loves that about me, about you too my friends.

We’ve already made some very cute and easy hats and scarves. As we go thru the process of these new fun crafts I’ll post more in depth pictures just in case you would like to try some in your year of Jubilee!

 

 

 

 

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Pinterest

I dove into Pinterest this week. I’ll be honest, I was avoiding it…. I knew for certain I was going to find hundreds of fun things to make, repurpose, sell or just enjoy. As predicted I’ve enjoyed poking around for ideas before bedtime almost every night. Being the middle of winter I didn’t exactly consider it a waste of time and turns out it’s proving to be a great help. Why though can I poke for hours and find hundreds of hundreds of small farmers and crafters like me? I’ll tell you… it’s in you to produce something.

Why though?? Many are finding pure joy in making things… Why?? Some will tell you it’s “getting back to our roots”, what roots? Some will tell you “you’ll live longer healthy lives”, so do the doctors. Some will tell you “it’s for peace of mind”, what was I worrying about before? I’d like to answer some of these questions with truth.

This seems silly and we’ve been here before but in case you haven’t seen it this way (I kinda didn’t till now) here it is again Genesis 1:27 So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them. He created. Oh man it was right there in front of us the whole time! HE CREATED. He, the one only, Lord of Lord’s, King of kings, Prince of peace…. Created. He likes making things! To simple right? Genesis 1:1 – 27 is just a small look into to a long list of things He created. Then He tells us He created us… in His image. He created us to be like Him. That included loving to create. 

This is good news for me. It means no matter what I’m creating I’m getting closer or learning something new about who Jesus is and what He does. Now before we go to far down that road let us remind ourselves 1 Timothy 6:10 For the love of money is the root of all evil: which while some coveted after, they have erred from the faith, and pierced themselves through with many sorrows.. This means don’t create something for the sole purpose of becoming rich. I’m not interested in having many sorrows, you? Remember that giving is the next step after creating. I often forget this myself and I’m so grateful He reminds me. Our world currently uses currency but Jesus using giving, period. If we need something, He gives it. I don’t need a dollar for bread if he tells a baker I need bread… you get my point. He created all things and then very literally gave them to Adam aka us. Then what??

Then He gave us a job to do. Be fruitful and multiply. This does NOT mean we are all farmers. However, it does mean innately we want to create SOMETHING.  I have a friend who creates beauty in her home with color and coordination. She also creates children so well she and her husband have twelve, it’s beautiful. I have a friend who makes old things new, a friend who creates art, a friend who writes, a friend who sings, and a friend who… well you get the point, yes?

So what are our roots? He created. What is our long life and health? Fear of the Lord. Proverbs 10:27 states, The fear of the LORD prolongeth days: but the years of the wicked shall be shortened. Also Proverbs 14:27 states, The fear of the LORD is a fountain of life, to depart from the snares of death. So how do we get from growing aka creating something to fearing Him? Simple, acknowledging you are made. How quickly can a tree be cut down though you spent years nurturing it to grow big and strong? How quickly can you kill grass with the lack of sun after years of it growing? The answers are heavy and should create fear of the Lord in you. He made you because He loves you and He allows us to feel blessed and have such sense of worth thru creating so that you might have eyes to see and ears to hear that He delights in you, His creation. Listen, take it NOT half hearted when the scripture says the years of the wicked be cut short and fear Him that created you, He is worth it. In doing so you invite a deeper relationship with Him and well, that’s only a good thing. 

This brings us to “peace of mind”. This one belongs to the “preppers” mostly. Some of you relax in creating and sooth yourself thus creating peace of mind, however, this catchy little phrase comes from all my former dooms day buddies. I get it, economy collapses and what does having MONEY do? Nothing. Must we get so wrapped up in money? Loving all the things money can buy and stock piling them so that we have it and someone else doesn’t…. Isn’t that still a love of money? You just skipped the currency part of it. What happened to giving? What happened to a man who doesn’t work doesn’t eat? That’s straight out of the bible by the way, 2 Thessalonians 3:10. It didn’t say “if you don’t stock pile diligently and have everything you might need if you might need it… Does it? In fact if you keep reading it actually says 11 For we hear that there are some which walk among you disorderly, working not at all, but are busybodies. Now them that are such we command and exhort by our Lord Jesus Christ, that with quietness they work, and eat their own bread. But ye, brethren, be not weary in well doing. This talks about working vs not working. When you work hard you will be blessed above what your storehouses can hold but not just for you. This goes back to giving. God doesn’t give to you for you to hold it, He gives so that YOU can give 2 Corinthians 9:Every man according as he purposeth in his heart, so let him give; not grudgingly, or of necessity: for God loveth a cheerful giver. Let your storehouse fill, but let it be known that your peace of mind comes in giving. Knowing that you also would have nothing if not given to you…. by Him. 

I’m loving my Pinterest time, however, I have to keep these things in mind as I find easy projects for my kids and I to create together. I have to remember that I need to create to bring joy, fill a need or just plain learn something new about Jesus and leave the worry, stress and love of money far far behind me. I hope you will seek something to create and enjoy. While you’re at it, create 2 and give one away, you’ll love the satisfaction of such crafts even more.

Amen

Dill and Beet Arrangement

 

Diligence

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What is diligence?

Websters dictionary defines it as

a :persevering application :assiduity

b obsolete :speedhaste

2:the attention and care legally expected or required of a person (as a party to a contract)
The Strongs Concordance defines it as

haste, with haste

earnestness, diligence

  1. earnestness in accomplishing, promoting, or striving after anything

Can we combine these two definitions to say that diligence is the acting out of one’s commitment with the urgency of a limited time to accomplish this task?  This is the way I read these definitions in conjunction.

Let’s work this further,  if I am not diligent to remove my tomatoes from the vine before the freeze comes in, they will freeze and rot resulting in the loss of fruits from hard work. There is a time limit associated with this word diligence.

Why does this matter?  The earth was designed to teach us about Jesus.  If my tomatoes require diligence to harvest fruit,  what diligence is required then of my spiritual fruit to be harvested? Second Peter 1:5-8 states “and beside this, giving all diligence, add to your faith virtue; and to virtue knowledge; 6And to knowledge temperance; and to temperance patience; and to patience godliness; 7And to godliness brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness charity. 8For if these things be in you, and abound, they make you that ye shall neither be barren nor unfruitful in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.”

I used to read this list as a life long journey list. However,  if I start to understand that diligence is a time constrained obedience to my commitment,  I start to wonder how much time do I have?!?!? Well,  God says in Hebrews 10:38 Now the just shall live by faith: but if any man draw back, my soul shall have no pleasure in him and Hebrews 11:1 says Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. My emphasis here is on the word NOW. Faith is a now thing.  Not what you believed yesterday,  what you believe now. This list of things to do starts with faith and that’s now and then you have to add to that…. now!  The Lord says in James that faith without works is dead.  When are we expected to act on our faith?  As soon as you believe and every moment thereafter.  There should be an urgency to the diligence of adding these to our faith and that process may take a while (as does any productive task in a garden) but it will never produce fruit if we don’t realize there is a time limit.
Get started now…. ask yourself “what is virtue?”

Fall Planting

A little known but wonderful tip…. Fall is the time for trees!  Only recently did someone inform me of this fabulous treasure! The best part is…. when they all go on sale is the prime time to plant!  Most people are excited in the spring to get outside and plant things, so the stores stock in spring.  When fall comes around most are done planting and everything goes on sale. If you are looking for something in particular you may want to go ahead and buy before fall but if you’re tastes are open this is a prime time.

Last year we purchased 20 trees at a fraction of the original price.  We paid between $5 and $7 each.  At this price it almost doesn’t matter what kind of fruit it produces.  Most stores will stock what grows well in your area however, do a little research before you go.  An educated buyer is a happy buyer.  For example, I live in an outskirt area of a large city; in the city some trees do better than on the other side of the mountain where I am and vise versa.

Don’t let the grid view of most conventional “orchards” trip you up. If you have the space, go for it. If not, plant a tree lined driveway or shade your children’s favorite place to play. Just keep in mind the spacing recommendations. A healthy tree is easier to maintain when given enough room to grow both above and below ground. Remember… a tree’s root system is as large as the visual branches, just upside-down. Look out for walls, foundations, and side walks. Also of course be considerate of your neighbor, they may not want fruit landing in their yard.

Follow the planting directions. The hole really does need to be much larger than the root ball. Check out your area’s soil situation and accommodate your trees need in the large hole so as to give it a “head start”. For example, our area is clay. In response to this we dig a large hole and fill it back in with a mix of wood chips, potting soil, compost and our clay soil. I recommend this for almost all soils but check to be sure this mix is best for you.

Taking these basic principles in mind is all you need to get started. You truly CAN learn as you go with trees. You’ll have time to learn to prune, fertilize and harvest these magnificent creations over the years it grows. If my husband and I would have known how simple and how cheap fall planting was… We could have been harvesting fruit for the last 7 years (3 years till fruit typically). Don’t let a little lack of knowledge stop you. Plant now, reap later. Let this set an example for your walk with Jesus also. Plant now in everyone that you love Jesus, tell who He is and what He did. If they ask you questions you don’t know, see it as an opportunity to learn something new and dig in. Suddenly He’ll be working your ground, growing your roots and enjoying your fruits.

 

Amen

Jubilee

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To plant or not to plant…. this is the question!

This year has been incredibly educational for my family and I, in and out of the garden. We started a journey with the Lord of learning more about His calender and feasts. It all started with Easter vs Passover. All of our lives we celebrated our Risen Christ on “Easter”. We found out this year that although Jesus rose on a Sunday, it wasn’t Easter Sunday and it wasn’t a Roman calender Sunday. It was three days after Passover (15th day of Nisan). Why does this matter? The 2 calendars don’t synchronize, therefore we were celebrating it on the wrong day most years. Again, why does this matter? It matters because the feasts are appointed times to meet with God and we were missing it. That’s like showing up to your wedding 2 days late or early!

Where am I going with this? It made us want to inspect God’s calender and find out what else we were missing. Turns out we were missing a lot. For example, Jesus was born at the beginning of the Feast of Tabernacle, not in December. What does this have to do with my garden? Jubilee. This year (which on God’s time started a couple weeks ago) is not just any year. It’s Jubilee. Every 7 years we are required to let the land rest. Then after 7 cycles of 7 it is the 50th year and it’s also a year of rest, among lots of other things like forgiving debts, setting free slaves etc. Meaning this past year was a Sabbath year (49th) and the upcoming is also Sabbath. Is this a big deal? Well…. yes.

Before we continue let me just say that following God’s appointed times isn’t what saves me with eternal salvation, that is belief in Christ Jesus and what He did. However… If Jesus said Himself “if you love me you’ll keep my commandments…” What commandments was he talking about? Is it so hard to follow His calender? I just don’t think so. Have I had to change all of my holiday dates and some of the traditions that went with them? Yes. Is it a small price to pay in comparison to what Jesus paid for me? YES. Why do I want to though? I WANT to show Jesus I love Him. I want to show Him that I believe dates and holidays and traditions mean nothing if not to meet with Him.

Ok… Jubilee. What are some real, tangible requirements of this year that I can follow that will show my Savior these things? No planting, no harvesting of things growing on their own, no pruning. This all catches me off guard since this is part of the staples of our living! Can I trust Him to take care of me regardless? Yes I can. He says that in the 6th year and the 48th year he will provide such abundance that it will carry us thru the Sabbath and 2 Sabbaths in the case of Jubilee. Pretty cool. I missed those years technically, but He didn’t. He knew this day was coming for us and the last 2 years HAVE been abundant!

I’m truly excited to do all the things that I probably wouldn’t do if I was planting, pruning and harvesting. Like building my root cellar, upgrading my fencing, building new beds in my garden and most of all teaching my children what it looks like to completely trust Jesus.

There won’t be a lot of posts about new things I learn in the area of planting pruning or harvesting.  However, I guarantee there will be plenty to learn about God’s creation in this upcoming year as I spend my time letting the land rest!

Presto, Pesto!

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I was pulling my carrots by the tons and having tons of fun doing it when I realized that I had no idea’s for all the greens. I thought to myself… surely there must be SOMETHING I can do other than feed them to my goats. Don’t get me wrong, I love that nothing goes to waste at my house because I have chickens and goats! I especially like to feed them my infested plants (aphid or wilt) and eradicate infestations quick and painless.  Anyway… I knew they were edible I just needed to find a great way to eat them! I found it! Pesto!

I found a great pesto recipe online and switched the basil for carrot tops. After you make the pesto to your liking you can put it in a mason jar and cover the top with olive oil and Presto… Pesto! It will save for a couple of weeks covered and in the fridge.  I made a chicken penne pesto that night and then had that same dish cold like pasta salad for lunch the next day.  I bet I could have added diced cucumber to it and that would have been delicious! Hmmm… note to self!

I told my sister about my fun discovery and she said she does that with beet tops too! Oh the fun! My next adventure is figuring out how to preserve it in a mason jar long term. Anyone can buy a jar of pesto at the store on a dry non refrigerated shelf… there must be a way! I’ll keep you posted!

Pesto Recipe:

2 Cups packed Carrot tops

2 Large Garlic Cloves

1/2 Cup grated Parmigian Cheese (I like romano)

1/3 Cup Walnuts (you can use pine nuts for traditional taste but these are more affordable)

1/4 Ground Black Pepper

2/3 Cup Olive Oil

Process everything except the oil in a food processor. I’ve heard that blenders work but you’ll get a different texture. Grind it till its semifine. With a slow stream add the Olive Oil while the food processor is running. Presto…. Pesto!!

 

Zucchini, Zucchini, as Far as the Eye Can See!

If you took any of my spring and late spring advice and planted a Zucchini plant you have so much you’re wondering what to do with it. My first and foremost advice is to share. Many people love fresh anything from a garden. Find the old couple on the block that just can’t get out there to garden or the single mom that just doesn’t have time. Maybe a big family that could use any break from the grocery bill. This is an awesome opportunity to get to know your neighbors. Someone once told me that Jesus loves a happy giver…. I believe that. The more I give away the more seems to grow! If you still have lots left over….which you will…. Try some of these tips.

Some of the best recipes can be found online, but here is what I do in addition to that….. I put it in everything that has a sauce. For example, if I’m making spaghetti, I’ll dice it or shred it and put it in the sauce. I will put it in everything from burritos to soups. The smaller you dice or shred it the more it will cook down and less anyone will notice it is there. If you’re like me you don’t mind the very mild taste anyway so go big. This is a great way to hide veggies in your favorite recipes for anyone in the family that just says “Ugh” to veggies.

What to do with those HUGE zucchinis! Try looking for stuffed zucchini recipes online but if that’s not to your taste or you’ve had enough of that; shred it. After you shred it, measure out the amount needed for your favorite zucchini bread recipe and then freeze it. Once you freeze zucchini it becomes very easy to cook down and makes a wonder soup base. If you are a vegetable stock kind of person, pull your scraps (carrot tops, beet tops, etc) together with your shredded zucchini and boil it till there isn’t much left and run it through cheesecloth then bag it and freeze it or pressure preserve it.

Yellow summer squash can be treated the same way. The best recipe I’ve had for squash is creamed! It is a butter, cream and salt miracle!

Hope this helps with the pile of green and yellow on your counter!

The Seed

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This is a subject close to my heart. The Seed. A few summers ago the Lord showed me the seed. What He showed me was one plant is started from one tiny seed but the fruit from that plant has hundreds if not thousands of seeds.  Why is this important?

From a gardener perspective this is a money saving wonder! How many times do we place an order for seeds and receive a tiny package with somewhere between 30 – 100 seeds. Depending on the type of seed you might get 30 corn but 100 carrot due to the size. Yet one ear of corn can have 100+ seeds on it! A carrot plant can have 1000+. Why do we spend dollar after dollar to buy seed from some other region?

We’re scared. Somewhere along the line someone told us we couldn’t, shouldn’t or we decided we wouldn’t. Saving seed is easier than you might think.

First you must start with a seed that will yield seed after its own kind as Genesis 1:11-12 talks about. In our day this is called “Heirloom”. If you are growing a hybrid the likelihood of the next plant being the same is very slim. A hybrid has a mom and a dad plant that are different types of the same plant and the kid plant is good. However, there after you never know if you’ll get something closer to the dad, mom, or kid plant.  On this note a GMO (Genetically Modified Organism) seed NEVER yields seed after its kind because it doesn’t have a mom and dad of the same genetic makeup. Hence I do not agree with GMO production. However GMO’s haven’t flooded the backyard gardener quite yet.

Second, you must leave room for your plants to continue to grow past its picking stage. In the case of root or herb plants (carrot, lettuce, etc)  this means just leaving one or two in the row to continue to grow into flowering and seed production. For the fruiting plants (tomatoes, cucumbers, etc) you would need to continue to pick the fruit till close to the end of that plants season and then chose the best producing plant to leave a couple of fruits on the plant to over ripen. This insures that the seed is completely developed before you harvest it.

Third you must pick, dry and store the seed in the proper way. To pick seed the most likely place is in the bottom of the flower pod. You can crack open the flower and find tons of seeds. (As pictured above. These are lettuce seeds from a flower pod) Also some plants produce a seed pod on the stem somewhere.  They tend to resemble some sort of “pea pod”. In the case of fruiting plants the seed obviously is in the fruit and so you must extract that seed and dry it. Pumpkins are super easy but tomatoes and cucumbers are a little tricky in that they prefer to be “fermented” first. I know! Your mind is swirling! Mine did too but when I found out that fermenting was as easy as putting the washed seed in a jar of water 3/4 full and leaving it in my window…. I relaxed. The good seed simply sinks to the bottom! Cool huh!

Drying and storing is fairly easy also in that to dry seed you lay clean, towel dried seeds out on a cookie sheet.  Turning them and stirring them frequently to keep them from molding. Once they are dry to the touch and somewhat firm, you can put them in paper lunch bags to store away from light and moisture. If they are a large seed such as squash plants store the paper bag in a dry arid place for a bit to continue to dry the inside before packing away. Do not use plastic bags because if any moisture at all is left in your seed it will humidify the plastic bag and mold your seed.

If you do these things and mess it up don’t worry, we all have. In this day and age you can still buy a new seed packet and start again.  Don’t give up though because the joy of growing little grandbabies in your garden is more than you can imagine. Some of the benefits are stronger, healthier, pest resistant plants that will produce so much more seed than you need and you can share! Sharing seed is a tradition that should never go away because it points us right back to our fellow neighbor in whom we should love like Jesus commanded us!

Which brings me to the next point. The Jesus in the seed. You see the Lord says that one seed (Adam) brought sin into this world because all his plants after him were of the likeness of him as stated in Genesis 5:3 and 1Cor 15:22. If you have a plant that produces cucumbers and you plant that seed, all you’re ever going to get is cucumbers…. right? This is why Jesus had to come and let us be born again of a new seed. His seed. So that when we grow, we produce fruit after His kind. These fruits are called sinless because Jesus did not sin though tempted (as in the wilderness). Each of us are first born of Adam, even a child born of a saved person is still first of Adam. We must all make the choice to change our seed to Jesus individually.

The neat thing about seeds is when you look at how many seeds come from just one plant you start to see the generational promise in Exodus 20:5-6. Thou shalt not bow down thyself to them, nor serve them: for I the LORD thy God am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children unto the third and fourth generation of them that hate me; and shewing mercy unto thousands of them that love me, and keep my commandments.  When I bust open a seed pod I can see how quickly even one generation lost is so many lost and one generation taught is so many! If I am that plant, and my fruit yields seed…. hundreds and hundreds of seed….. I question quickly what plants my seeds would grow. If seeds saved from plants grown in the same environment year after year produce stronger, healthier, pest resistant plants, what environment should I be growing my children in? The answer is not wealth or ease but an environment that loves Jesus.

Are you still a plant of the seed of Adam? If so, the way to fix it is simple. The Lord says, if you believe in your heart that Jesus Christ is Lord of all and He died for your sins and rose again, all you have to do is confess this belief with your mouth and let the redeemed of the Lord say so! So to that I say… SO!

Amen

Why be a producer?

20140723_130354As I confessed in my previous blog, I used to think that I was becoming a producer because if I knew where it was grown and how it was grown it would be healthier and my family and I would live a longer, better life.  Surprise, surprise, I was wrong. The Lord says “Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart” Psalms 27:4. The interesting thing about my desire to learn to be a producer was that I was wrong in my motivation.  As soon as I “delighted” myself in the Lord, He promptly showed me why He had placed that desire in my heart.

You see I was explaining to my children why the Lord is about to judge this nation.  First, why does God judge nations real time? Answer: there are no “nations” in heaven to judge, only individuals. Second, why would God judge this nation? Answer: it was founded as “One Nation Under God” which means it was supposed to set a better example and for a long time it did, now it has turned from God and mocks Him openly. Third, what does judgement of a nation look like? Answer: historically speaking, a collapse of economy or invasion and take over by an enemy sometimes both.  Take a look at Ezekiel 35, it is one of many examples of what God does when He judges a nation.  Why does this explanation matter? Answer: this is why we are called to learn to produce something. Not to save ourselves but to save a nation after its collapse.  By save, I truly mean the only “saved” that matters and that’s saved from eternal judgement in Hell.

Okay wait…. I talked about why we are becoming producers and I seemingly jumped to saving from Hell?? UHHH…. How does cabbage save people from Hell you might ask? I can understand why you would.  I asked the same thing.  Here’s the answer.  When people are starving it doesn’t take long for word to get around who has the food.  When they line up at my door I must have something to feed their physical body. More importantly, I must feed their spirit.  I explained to my children if I feed their stomach and they live one more day but at death face eternal Hell, what good have I done? None.  You can guarantee that if you share a meal with me, you will leave with an understanding of who Jesus is and what He did for you, or I’ve failed.

The practice starts now.  I must know how to provide enough food for more than my family before the time comes.  I don’t know if you’ve noticed or not, but the learning curve on some of these activities is drastically steep!  I must also start to teach people now, not wait for the starving because Jesus says Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen, Hebrews 11:1. The emphasis is NOW.  NOW I should follow Jesus whole heartedly and share Him. NOW I should learn to do these things and if the judgement delays past my lifetime, then I’ve obeyed and still I’m certain many will be impacted by the obedience.  If the least of what I’ve done is pass this teaching down to my children, I’ve climbed a mountain in my book.  I can only hope that my children will be even bolder for Jesus than I am.

It’s always a personal choice. My cabbage opportunity may not save you or anyone else if you don’t accept the message yourself. However, I must spread the word.  Jesus says Blow ye the trumpet in Zion, and sound an alarm in my holy mountain: let all the inhabitants of the land tremble: for the day of the LORD cometh, for it is nigh at hand, Joel 2:1.  If the desire to grow things lives inside you…. Maybe you should delight yourself in the Lord and He will show you what it is going to accomplish.  Many times we think we have it figured out, I know I did.  Often times we find out that there is so much more Jesus is doing than we could have imagined.  He says For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, Isaiah 55:8.  However, when we let the mind of Christ be in us (Philippians 2:5) than our thoughts can be just like His and our ways be led by Him!

Amen